"just love yourself and aaaaall problems disappear" I'm tired.

I had so many mental health hospital stays and its always the same "we can't help" and when someone says they want help "love yourself" and than they see this is not fixing me and also say "can't help". or doctors and nurses and social workers who say "did you ever considered to kys? you will never get better? why keeping suffering, mh? :)" I had last year my first year EVER without trauma. because I hide. fr. I hide. I isolate myself and I hate this loneliness. I give my best keeping hoping and fighting but now also this awful political stuff and... why? why... nobody will ever love me. I will never live a life. why keep going. I'm tired.