FOMO cure?

Decided not to go this year after months of consideration. Last year was miserable. I'm a lead (one of several) for a 150+ person camp and with the extreme heat and fuel delivery delays our generator went down multiple times. 95% of my waking hours were spent at camp solving problems. My overall memory of 2022 was that is sucked majorly and barely any adventuring was had. On top of all that I ended up with a horrible rash (never happened before in 7 years burning) at the bitter end of LNT on Wednesday post burn, felt like someone was dragging hundreds of razors across my skin. 0 out of 10, do not recommend.

I've so enjoyed being a lead in the past but last year broke me. I had so much anxiety thinking about this years burn. When I finally decided not to go I felt so much better.

But now my fomo is so strong! I keep thinking about how it's not too hot and not too dusty. How things seem to be going so smoothly at camp. How there are so many campmates I only get to see on playa due to large distances throughout the rest of the year. How it's not that far of a drive and I could do it if I wanted to...

Remind me how miserable the burn can be and convince me to stay home? Y'all already out there shouldn't be on Reddit but if you are and want to vent about everything going wrong for you so far that might help. Looking for anything to make me feel better lol