Bi men Who are more leaning towards other men: would You rather 100% gay or are You satisfied being bi?

As a bi man (21), more leaning towards other men, I feel mixed feelings when I think about this. Sometimes I wish I was 100% gay, because I feel that there is a certain part of gay men who do not want to date bisexual men, because according to them: "Bi men only want relationships with women and see men as sexual objects".

I also feel that it is difficult to find other bisexual men, and when I do find them, most of them strongly prefer women and are not interested in serious relationships with other men.

I am a guy who ends up passing as straight, and because of that I feel that guys who are gay/bi are afraid to approach me in real life and I almost always end up assuming that other men are straight and I'm afraid to invest in someone and be aggressive towards me.

On the other hand, I sometimes end up being "grateful" for being attracted to women too and since my attraction to women is consistent and somewhat higher, I feel that I can be in a relationship with a woman and be happy that way. I would like to have biological children, which ends up contributing to this decision as well. Also, since there are more straight/bi women in the world than gay/bi men, I am more likely to end up with a woman in the end. Likewise, blonde people end up catching my attention more, I am more likely to end up with a brunette person, simply because there are more of them.

Does anyone else feel the same way?