Mirroring and merging

I was such an easy target for mirroring. Always been lonely, just wanted someone to see that I'm special too. And it felt so good to find someone who was so interested in me and who treated me like I was the best person to ever exist.

In retrospect it all makes sense. How he said "I wasn't really attracted to you, I wanted to BE you". And "I want to merge with you" while hugging me. It hurts to understand he was never really romantically interested in me, that I was just an object from which he could try to get safety and a personality from.