people think i'm too ugly for my bf

my boyfriend just randomly told me that his coworker asked to see a picture of me, and when he saw what i looked like, he ran away laughing and then said "as long as you're happy" WHY THE FUCK WOULD HE TELL ME THAT??? knowing i'm so insecure about my appearance knowing i'm so sensitive i felt decently attractive today and now i want to start self harming again to spite myself and everyone else

it's not like im blind, I know im ugly and my boyfriend is way out of my league, but it just hurts to be reminded of that

i so badly want to break up with him now so i can stop this pain