Should I text my ex bpd boyfriend back? No romantic reason.

Hi, I need your help on deciding what to do. I don't have BPD so I hope you help me to know what would be the better option for him or just do nothing if I'm just going to f everything more or that me reaching to him would help him to clear misunderstandings in anyway. I don't want anything romantic. I just want to give a close to our relationship friendship/lovers story in the best way it can be.

Option 1: Do nothing Option 2: Text and explain him what happened when I broke up 10 years ago, and what happened when we stopped talking 4 years ago. And finally explain that even though he is smn dear to me, I think is best for both of us to stay away.

Long story short: We are each other's first love. We dated when I was 14 ,and he was 16, 16 years ago. 2 years of relationship. It was beautiful, an innocent and romantic love. I broke up, i didn't told him why bc I thought I would hurt him and I didn't want that. There was nothing dramatic, I just felt like he fell out of love with me and that we didn't truly knew each other's as a person, you know? 1 year passed of NC (only him sending letters) and he asked on a Christmas date, It didn't feel the same but he kissed me and run away. I thought he would asked me to be his gf but he didn't. Instead after the days passed he showed me his other side. A cold one. I still get shivers thinking abt that. The eyes that were full of love and life were suddenly empty. He felt like a piece of ice. It shocked me.

Well after 10 years ( 4 years ago) I texted him back bc I was reaching old friends. I always saved him in my heart as smn very dear to me. That's when he told me that I was his best relationship ever, asked me why I broke with him and couldn't give him a proper reason bc I forgot. I took it lightly and was not very thoughtful with the answers I gave him. He also told me that he suffered a lot after the break up, that after he got diagnosed with BPD. I felt guilty, thinking it was me that provoke his BPD to get worse. He idealized me a lot. I felt he saw me like saint Maria as a woman bc he thought I was soo pure and as a person bc he thought I was smn gentle and selfless. I felt so much pressure to be perfect, it was a feeling I didn't like. So unconsciously I tried to look more human and did things I knew he wouldn't like in a woman.

It's confusing bc I thought he was kinda flirting or wanted smt romantic bc he told me I was his ideal type, you know I felt he was on his knews in front of his princess (me) and I didn't like that. Not bc I didn't like him but I didn't like the dynamics. I just wanted a chill friendship the one you have with old friends. As i was trying him not to like me so much, I fell for him bc of his sweetness and care and I started to act loving and supportive of him. After 1 month and 1 week since we reconnected he raged and told me he only wanted a friendship. I said okay, and acted more like friends only, I started to text less and focus on my life trying to erase feelings. But he, after being cold, was telling me how pretty I looked on photos I posted. For a week I was mad and cold to him bc ... I thought he was just playing with me. However I tried to kinda know what was going on bc all that happened in those two months were confusing, but he ghosted me.

Then, I read abt BPD (bf I didn't bf bc I didn't want to judge him based on his diagnosis) and all made sense. I felt worry bc all the bad things crossed my mind. I was in panick not knowing what to do. I also, thought I was putting myself too high thinking that I even mean smt to him. So now, I'm writing this.

Lastly, he texted me on 2023, asking for a call saying he felt really bad. I didn't know what to do. I was afraid of his cold side. I thought he was reaching out only to hurt me, take revenge like in the past. On the other side, I also felt like I couldn't really help him with anything, I was afraid we would talk again and I would just leave him again.

So, what should I do? Do nothing bc probably he doesn't care abt me anymore. Text him explaining and giving him the answer I couldn't (I don't want him to think I hate him or that I think he is a bad person) and then telling him that the best is to stay away from each other bc I don't want to hurt him and I don't want to get hurt either.