Being Alone and Single at 40

I spent the last 30 minutes deleting my profiles on dating apps. 15 minutes of that was waiting for the apps to redownload because I deleted them a couple weeks ago.

I posted on here a few weeks ago looking for advice about dating after 40. It was a really good discussion with a lot of great advice and suggestions. I thought I wanted to get back out there. I did meet someone but he ghosted me after I asked to take things slow. We had an amazing emotional connection but he wanted a fully committed relationship after two weeks. I wasn’t ready. After some self reflection, I honestly do not think I want to date at all. I miss having a companion sometimes but for the most part, I enjoy being alone and single more.

After my last relationship ended, I realized I do not want anyone else in my space nor do I want to live with another person again. I mean if I meet someone who is looking for the same things as me, I consider it. As of right now, I’m not actively looking to date. I’m just going to focus on myself while enjoying my hobbies and interests. And plus, I do not want to leave my house anymore. Peopling and being social are exhausting and so hard to recover since I have been living unmasked for the last 4 almost 5 years. I just do not have the spoons (energy) to give anymore. I’m curious if there is anyone else who feels like relationships are not for them.