Worst hookup experience of my life.. yet 😭

So I (30) met this guy (37) on Tinder and we were talking hot for a while. We planned to do some things today.

Basically he wanted to show up at the house today, not have any conversation and hookup.

I am not into that, so I asked him to meet me at a bar, where he mentioned he is sober so I respected that!

We had some discussions, I tried to be real with him and asked some of his experiences, how he dealt with being gay etc! Maybe he was not into that kind of talk so he tried to avoid that conversation outright. I told him about my situation, how I am a Bi and not out yet etc.

In my head, we had a decent conversation. I always have good, meaningful conversations with anyone I meet.

Cut to the house, I tried to initiate the sex and we made out which he was also into. But he was not getting hard at all. I tried few other things, but now he wanted to stall and talk?

He was giving me mixed signals, like at the bar he wanted to go home and have sex and at the home he wanted to talk.

I realized maybe he just isn’t in me and kept stalling going to the bed.

We had a moment were he kept looking in my eyes for a full minute in make out position, and me being me felt that it was weird. And that was it, I knew he was not feeling it as he was still not hard.

We had some chit-chat, he told me he needs some meaningful connection to have sex, but that is completely opposite of his approach to try to meet up my place directly and start doing the deed. Like how can we have meaningful connection without talking?

Anyways, when he was leaving he kept complementing me, even kissed me? I told him I won’t be seeing him again and that was it.

Now my head is totally screwed, like what did I do wrong in the whole thing? Is it wrong to open up to people before sex? Do I need to change my game? Or the guy had ED!

I do have stretch marks on my body, maybe that was a turn off? But he was still not hard before seeing them. I am very fit and athletic otherwise. He kept saying how cute I was and how nice my eyes were.

Also now I am conscious of these stretch marks which was not an issue for another guy I met. They are permanent, and I for sure can’t fix them.

I am so confused. He has deflated my motivation to now even meet another guy like this. If another guy refuses me like this again, I am TOTALLY swearing off dates. I feel like crap for the very first time. 😭