Idk how I can deal with this everyday

I am having just an awful day, I am on new medication 10mg lexapro 10 mg buspar twice. day and I feel line it is doing nothing for my awful health anxiety. I can not go a day without worrying something is wrong with me. Getting worse bc I have a family trip to mexico coming up and im freaking out. I know I should try to be positive but I think all the medication is making me not able to cry and I need to get my stress out. I always feel like I am dying.