Update: WITBTAH for breaking up with my gf because she dissaciates during sex.

Second update

I broke up with her.

After finding a therapist, we got to a place where we tried to have sex.

The lights were on, she was on top, we agreed to a safe word and hand signals.

All of that went out the window because she freaked out, and scratched my face, she almost tore up my eyeball. I didn't even do anything, I was watching for her hand signals and face. But it just happened too fast

She apoligized a lot, but I don't think I can handle this.

Doctor said I was lucky, cuz my eye could have been permanently damaged.

I'm just not built for this.